Hey!
I am trying to decided whether it's 'right' to blog about this. If I am honest I need somewhere to sort through my feelings about the events of tonight, so this is the place I choose.
It's a Saturday night and I just came back from a really awesome party. There was no alcohol. Instead there was a DJ, a sticky dance floor, a buffet and some extremely cheesy but slightly awesome music. It was my friends 16th birthday party and, if I am honest, it is one of the best nights I've ever had. So, why do I feel so... deflated?
There's this guy. I know, typical teenage girl right here. I never really... noticed him before. I never really spoke to him I guess. We shared some... moments, for lack of a better word. You know the 'moments' that only ever happen in movies. He wasn't about to kiss me and someone interrupted, no, my life isn't that dramatic. We just shared these moments, well I think we did. There was two 'moments' and they were interrupted. By non other than his 'best' friend/the girl who really fancy's him. The girl is lovely and she's my friend so this is not going to be a bitch about her. No, this is going to be a almost 'what if?' post.
Don't get me wrong, I am a very c'est la vie type of person. I firmly believe that 's**t happens' and 'if it is meant to happen it will' but, tonight, I really wish it had happened. I am not 100% sure what I mean by 'it'. I guess some kind of sign. But, lets be honest, life's never that simple. The moments were interrupted and that is what it is but there were other signs too. He was just... errr I can't describe it. My friends have warned me that he is someone that lots of people like and I get that, really I do. But I have never liked someone like this before. I know, that's a really cliche thing to say. I get it but it's true. I kinda think he likes me too but maybe I am wrong. Maybe this is me reading into things to much or maybe it's me being an over emotional b***h but, I honestly think, that something happened between us.
He hugged me when I left and said some really sweet things about us never really 'knowing' each other before tonight. I high-fived him and he kinda grabbed hold of my hand and held it for a bit. Is that me reading to much into it or are the signs really there?
I am super confused.
-Jess<3
