Hi!
Do you every feel like your falling behind? Like everyone else is on the train and you've not even made it to the station yet? Call me cliche but, when I was 10, I thought that by the age of 15 I would have a boyfriend and be going to party's every weekend. However, 5 years on, I have done non of those things. I have never been to a party, hell I have never even been invited to one. I have never got drunk and I most certainly have never had a boyfriend. I have yet to experience my first love, first kiss, first relationship, first party and first hangover and, although I know that they will all happen, I can't seem to shake the feeling that I am falling behind.
It's a Saturday night, my Facebook news feed is being taken up with status about party's and what am I doing? I am sat at home, ill, in sweatpants, watching 'Awkward' and writing on my blog. I know how cliche this must seem; a 15 year old girl writing about her lack of social life and the feeling that she is falling behind, but it's true and, sometimes, the truth is a cliche.
I am not one of those girls who are like 'my crush doesn't like me so I am going to die alone with 50 cats' but I understand how they feel. As far as I know, a guy has never been 'interested' in me. This is not a fact that necessarily upsets me but it is a fact that makes me think:
In less than 4 months I turn 16 and, as I sit in my room listening to people, mostly couples, walk past my house making their way to whatever party they're going to, I can't help but wonder if that will be me this time next year or if I will still be sitting here wishing it was?
-Jess<3
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